Hi, i know most of you dont know me but thats fine. i came to seek for help and answers.
I'll start from the beginning. School has started and things were going very well. I enjoyed hanging out with my friends and my classes. Towards Nov-Dec i started hanging out this girl named sally who i met last year through Key Club. We were both officers and we were getting along very well. She is very fun and nice on the inside; however, she likes to bottle thigns on the inside and run away. I learned that the hard way. I felt like i was falling for her at the time around dec. but another part of me said no im cant. In Mid Dec i began to text her and IM her a lot.
Next, two of my friends asked me who i was planning to take to prom. Her name came up and I said yeah and then i felt like there really was no one i rather go with because i know i would have the most fun with her out of everyone. Our group formed where there were seven of us friends who hung out all of the time. I started to get closer to her everytime we get the chance to hang out. I would flirt adn talk with her a lot. Later, i finally had the guts to ask her to prom and i was so happy she said yes.
Eventually, I also started to feel jealousy whenever she was with another guy so i tried to get closer to her but she kept backing away from me at times. It hurt me so bad whenever she did this. i felt like i was annoying her. I told my two best friends about how i felt and that was it. I told some other people who i thought i could trust about how i was taking her to prom.
Around Valentine's day, they let it slipped out that i had told them about prom and she got embarrassed. I overreacted and yelled at my friends. I had stopped talking to them for two days and later everything calmed down. Now at school, she didnt even bother to really talk to me anymore. She began to flirt with this other guy and they got really annoying not to just me but everyone. My friends started to feel that they cant stand how she is.
Later i typed up an email about how i felt and i told her everything. I didn't know at the time that she wouldn't know how to deal with this and the only thing she can do now is to ignore me completely. I wished she can understand or know how much pain i am going through right now. She doesn't answer the phone when i text or call her.All of my friends have split up into sort of two separate groups. I feel like its my fault that they are choosing sides. It has been two weeks that she had been ignoring me.
She returns an email now telling me that she doesnt feel the same way that i do and she only sees me as a friend. She cant look at me the same way as before and i am no longer going to prom with her because she believes that things will not work out. It is all too much for her to handle right now. i was crushed and i honestly cant deal with it anymore. I can no longer go to prom or my graduation. I cant even play tennis. I dont think i can even stay friends with anyone right now. I asked my friend to take me out of the personal yearbook page that had all of our friends in it All i can do now is go to school and nothing else. I seriously do not know how to deal with this or move on.
I couldnt stopped crying last night and i felt like the biggest pussy in the world. I stayed home today because i couldnt bear to see her or let anyone see me right now. I felt like i let everyone down because i couldnt keep a promise that i would fix things between everyone. I want to go to prom with her as one of my everylasting memories in high school. I really felt like dying that night (which was last night). I dont know how i can focus on my school work. I really cant move on and i dont know how. Im so lost and i felt like my life has been twisted around so much.
Please give me answers. I honestly do not know what to do anymore. Im incapable of solving anything. I have let everyone down. If you can help me please. I am desperate for answers.. I cant asked my real life friends at the moment. SO please try to help me because everyone tells me that everything will be all right but i do not see it happening
I'll start from the beginning. School has started and things were going very well. I enjoyed hanging out with my friends and my classes. Towards Nov-Dec i started hanging out this girl named sally who i met last year through Key Club. We were both officers and we were getting along very well. She is very fun and nice on the inside; however, she likes to bottle thigns on the inside and run away. I learned that the hard way. I felt like i was falling for her at the time around dec. but another part of me said no im cant. In Mid Dec i began to text her and IM her a lot.
Next, two of my friends asked me who i was planning to take to prom. Her name came up and I said yeah and then i felt like there really was no one i rather go with because i know i would have the most fun with her out of everyone. Our group formed where there were seven of us friends who hung out all of the time. I started to get closer to her everytime we get the chance to hang out. I would flirt adn talk with her a lot. Later, i finally had the guts to ask her to prom and i was so happy she said yes.
Eventually, I also started to feel jealousy whenever she was with another guy so i tried to get closer to her but she kept backing away from me at times. It hurt me so bad whenever she did this. i felt like i was annoying her. I told my two best friends about how i felt and that was it. I told some other people who i thought i could trust about how i was taking her to prom.
Around Valentine's day, they let it slipped out that i had told them about prom and she got embarrassed. I overreacted and yelled at my friends. I had stopped talking to them for two days and later everything calmed down. Now at school, she didnt even bother to really talk to me anymore. She began to flirt with this other guy and they got really annoying not to just me but everyone. My friends started to feel that they cant stand how she is.
Later i typed up an email about how i felt and i told her everything. I didn't know at the time that she wouldn't know how to deal with this and the only thing she can do now is to ignore me completely. I wished she can understand or know how much pain i am going through right now. She doesn't answer the phone when i text or call her.All of my friends have split up into sort of two separate groups. I feel like its my fault that they are choosing sides. It has been two weeks that she had been ignoring me.
She returns an email now telling me that she doesnt feel the same way that i do and she only sees me as a friend. She cant look at me the same way as before and i am no longer going to prom with her because she believes that things will not work out. It is all too much for her to handle right now. i was crushed and i honestly cant deal with it anymore. I can no longer go to prom or my graduation. I cant even play tennis. I dont think i can even stay friends with anyone right now. I asked my friend to take me out of the personal yearbook page that had all of our friends in it All i can do now is go to school and nothing else. I seriously do not know how to deal with this or move on.
I couldnt stopped crying last night and i felt like the biggest pussy in the world. I stayed home today because i couldnt bear to see her or let anyone see me right now. I felt like i let everyone down because i couldnt keep a promise that i would fix things between everyone. I want to go to prom with her as one of my everylasting memories in high school. I really felt like dying that night (which was last night). I dont know how i can focus on my school work. I really cant move on and i dont know how. Im so lost and i felt like my life has been twisted around so much.
Please give me answers. I honestly do not know what to do anymore. Im incapable of solving anything. I have let everyone down. If you can help me please. I am desperate for answers.. I cant asked my real life friends at the moment. SO please try to help me because everyone tells me that everything will be all right but i do not see it happening