Gonna start with some background:
16
Junior
Male
Huge Gamer
No Social Life
So now onto the reason behind me coming here. So I've pretty much been depressed since I was 13. I hate just about everyone and just about everything. Just today, I've figured out where my issue is coming from. As pathetic as this sounds, I can honestly say I've based my life on "I wanna be the very best, like no one ever was." Whenever I had something, I NEEDED to be the best at it, no matter what. The issue is, I've been just adequate at everything, even when I try really hard. THIS is the reason. If I can't be the best at anything, then I haven't done anything I want, leading to my depressed state. And if I can't be the best, then what is the point in living just to do nothing? Nobody else knows and nobody can tell, cause I hide it really well. So I came to you, knowing that you wouldn't judge me. On the note of suicide, have I thought about it, yes. Would I ever do it, no. So yea, that's kinda my issue right now. I'd appreciate anything you have to say.
16
Junior
Male
Huge Gamer
No Social Life
So now onto the reason behind me coming here. So I've pretty much been depressed since I was 13. I hate just about everyone and just about everything. Just today, I've figured out where my issue is coming from. As pathetic as this sounds, I can honestly say I've based my life on "I wanna be the very best, like no one ever was." Whenever I had something, I NEEDED to be the best at it, no matter what. The issue is, I've been just adequate at everything, even when I try really hard. THIS is the reason. If I can't be the best at anything, then I haven't done anything I want, leading to my depressed state. And if I can't be the best, then what is the point in living just to do nothing? Nobody else knows and nobody can tell, cause I hide it really well. So I came to you, knowing that you wouldn't judge me. On the note of suicide, have I thought about it, yes. Would I ever do it, no. So yea, that's kinda my issue right now. I'd appreciate anything you have to say.