I've tried a lot of drugs. Shrooms, LSD, weed in many different and often lovely forms, heroin, cocaine, ecstacy (involving mdma, meth, piperazines, etc), straight MDMA, speed, zopiclone, zolpidem, pretty much any benzodiazepiene you can think of, most of the more common opiate-based painkillers.. oh yeah and a load of research chems - mephedrone being the one that sort of took over and wrecked my life, but if it was a legally available (even briefly) stimulant that existed last year I probably took it.
I didn't have a problem with drugs until last year, really - brief periods of flirtation with opiate addiction a couple of years ago (and a seriously unpleasant period of valium addiction, though that was doctor-propagated) but since then they've sort of ruined my life and my bank balance. that's because i'm basically a mess and what Rocket Grunt says about heroin, I use stims the same way - just get fucked, ignore the rest of life. Now I'm probably on the road to alcoholism - drinking more than I care to let on, daytime drinking, binge drinking a couple of nights a week. i guess what im trying to say is even though i had addiction issues, i still stumbled my way through life. since last year that has not been the case. my weight dropped to 86lbs (I'm 5'6/167 cm tall) and I dropped out of uni, broke up every relationship i had, cheated on people, lied to people, committed quite a few petty crimes, did quite a lot of other stupid things, lost my job, ended up homeless, spent time in a psychiatric ward (twice). i got clean-ish over the summer and went to university in manchester - but there is a fucktonne of drugs in manchester, and i unfortunately ended up living with a coke fiend (totally by chance). i lasted about eight weeks before i took an overdose of MDMA - just to try and get it to fucking work, as i'd rinsed my brain of serotonin - it didnt, i drank a lot - like, an inhuman amount, bottles of wine/aftershock/vodka - and slashed up my arm and took an overdose of several other non-abusable drugs. then i came to in a hospital. it was not good.
in short, the problem is not drugs, it is me. so like, if you're a mess, stay the fuck away from drugs. I'm going to try and become a stoner instead I think, much gentler on everything and everyone around me. at least when i was doing stims I wasn't a bitch quite as much!
