i have decided to release this information for your perusal.
yesterday was my birthday, and i started it off right by taking .4 grams of mescalin, which is the psychoactive ingredient in peyote cactus, dissolved in a half glass of water. let me just say that no words can accurately describe how you perceive reality when experiencing this drug's effects. colors, especially deep hues of blue, purple, and green for me (it apparently changes for every user) are impossibly bright. patterns have new depth and texture. music comes alive. all inhibitions placed upon the normally functional human brain that enhance the capability for the species to survive, but prevent advanced thought, are completely removed. i was at my highest level of thought. when i removed a small amethyst from my pocket that i had been carrying for this particular experience, my observers report that i stared at it for about twenty minutes solid. the multifaceted surface and impossibly deep, pure, bright purple shade penetrated to the depths of my character. it was a truly astounding experience...like nothing i have ever seen before. shockingly, when i tried to express my thoughts as words to my friends around me, they came out clean and effortless. when i was lead outside and ascended the mesa behind my house, i woke up. i felt it in my bones, it felt like home. absolutely beyond comprehension. i have always loved the desert in which i live, the rocks and the sand and the plants are all my friends. but until then i had never appreciated what they were. the gritty yellow-orange colour that i love so much was brighter than the sun on a cloudless day, yet i could view it without permanently damaging my eyes. all my hair stood on end. once again, according to my friends, i sat down, back perfectly straight, and stared off into the desert for about thirty minutes. i have no recollection of how long it really was. my experience feels like a blink that lasted an eternity. as the sun died before my eyes, the drug's effects began to wear off, and i began to come to. the disembodied experience that i have failed to discuss so far, however, continued. yes, under the influence of this powerful consciousness enhancement, i had ceased to be able to control my physical functions. when i walked, i did not walk, but my body did so. i did not command it. it was instinctual. the mental consciousness and physical consciousness, usually intertwined, were distinct and separate. i could view my arms and legs from the perspective of one who had no arms and legs but always viewed those with arms and legs yet did not envy them. that is how hard it is to put the feeling into words. when i played music it flowed into my physical ears, and then into my mental "ears", but my ears weren't the ears, the "ears" were. and i understood the notes and how they felt, but now i don't. the whole experience, now over, left me with a fading glimpse of how i viewed the world under the control of this amazing substance, but my comprehension of the true reality has largely faded. or maybe it's the false reality, but in that case, why would my perception be so clear? why, if this is the true world we belong in, and not the metaphysical world of mescalin, was everything so perfect and clean and beautiful? and yet, i retain no longing for the drug. the experience was had, and has passed, and is over; and i feel that if i were to repeat it soon enough, i would grow insane from the perspective of all of you, but more sane to myself.
take it as you wish.