It’s been awhile since I’ve posted here, but there’s something I want to get off my chest.
I went to Laos on a school trip on the 8th for a week earlier this month. During this trip, I fell for someone. She actually used to be a good friend of mine, though we drifted off in the last year or so. During the trip, we became really close friends again and talked a lot about all kinds of things. I started having feelings for her and the way she acted towards me, I had a feeling the feelings were mutual. We got back a week later and hung out over the weekend before school started again. It was great, and my feelings for her continued to develop.
After we got back, she also sent me this long text message, where she sorta explained her feelings to me…she said things like “I want you to know that I am really sorry if I ever led you on. The truth was, I think I liked you” and then saying how she was really confused and it seemed unrealistic. She also said she feels “really strongly about [me], but they are friendly feelings, not romantic”, and then goes on and tells me I’m a really sweet guy and any girl would be lucky to have me, etc. etc. The message consisted of pretty much all compliments and I was pretty flattered when I read it.
We have been back for around two weeks now, and we’ve hung out a couple more times, sometimes with a few others who were also on our trip, sometimes with just the two of us. I was surprised that half the time, she was the one to initiate these hang outs, making me inclined to believe that she at least was sort of interested in me. The problem is, it really hasn’t been that long since we’ve come back, and I feel like we’ve already drifted apart to such an extent that we barely talk. When we first came back, we texted a lot throughout the day, and half the time both of us would get so little sleep at night because we texted hours before we slept. A few days later, we started texting a bit less, because she told me one day that she was getting really sleepy at school, and should save our conversations for the weekends. It sucked, but I agreed to it.
So there are two things I want to clarify…
Judging by what she said in her text message, does that mean she doesn’t like me that way? I find it really strange that she has “strong feelings” for me that are friendly??? I know that’s probably what she means, but I just want to confirm this. Also what is with complimenting me and telling me how sweet I am, and telling me any girl would be lucky to have me when that girl could have been her???
Also, is there any way to stop us from drifting apart/should I even try to make things work? I feel like the last time we hung out, our conversations started to become generic and boring. I don’t know why but I just can’t seem to think of things to talk to her about anymore. We don’t share any classes and I don’t see her at school often at all either. We used to leave class to go to the bathroom, and then come find each other and talk, but that no longer happens. And now our texting is almost nonexistent. I feel like she isn’t making an effort in maintaining our “friendship” or whatever it is, and maybe it would just be better to leave everything we had behind.
I think this is pretty much everything I wanted to say. Any advice or suggestions would be greatly appreciated, though I really just wanted somewhere to talk about this. Thank you for your time.
Hi Shiny-- long time no see.
BTW dude, aren't you in College now? Or like a senior/junior in Highschool or something right? Can't remember; but this story reminds me a lot of those you had from years back. From this and the last story you told me I can tell you've grown up a lot, but still very cute. heh
Maybe still a bit too cute?
I mean, "started having feelings for"? "feeling that those feelings were mutual"?
Come on man-- I'd expect that you learn by now that when you "start" something with a girl, it's almost never "feelings" that are on the table first (or even should be on the table). "Feelings" are almost always preceded by "attraction", and that's what you should be trying to establish early on. What you should be trying to read for is not "feelings", and the word "mutual" probably should be nowhere in your mind (that and "reciprocate")-- but outward expressions of "interest". You can't expect her to commit any "feelings" to you; until she's "interested" first.
I was surprised that half the time, she was the one to initiate these hang outs, making me inclined to believe that she at least was sort of interested in me.
This sentence is more grown-up, and shows the right attitude for instance. INTEREST-- looking for those cues of potential attraction, and man... Both you and her talking like your 7th graders. Though I might just think this because I grew up in the US; maybe in Hong Kong you guys develop slower on the sex/relationship stuff. Living abroad has taught me that the Japanese and Chinese definitely do!
A few days later, we started texting a bit less, because she told me one day that she was getting really sleepy at school, and should save our conversations for the weekends. It sucked, but I agreed to it.
No girl communicates THIS much with a straight guy without SOMETHING going on there-- unless she's a relative or has a different, strongly established relationship (like you'd buddy's girlfriend for instance). IE. There's DEFINITELY something on the table-- it's all a matter of playing it out the right way (which is the really tricky part). BUT you'll have a much better chance if you man up and act rather than wonder about "feelings."
You don't like being hurt by girls-- they don't like being hurt by guys. No one wants to be pressured into "feeling" anything, it has to come organically.
You should definitely go after her-- but avoid any "emotional" talk. You need to know each other as people before you can as lovers... and also texting obsessively is just bad. If you ever feel like you're dying to get her next text message, you're doing it wrong. If she's dying to get YOUR next text message-- you're doing it right. lol
Less talk, less words, more action my friend. Ask her to get a burger. Go somewhere with context where you can talk about something ELSE.
For instance, if she likes nature, I'd take her to the Hong Kong wetlands park-- lots of scenery, beautiful nature, and I can show off my knowledge of plants and wetland animals. Feelings of "admiration" and "being impressed" are only a hop skip and a jump away from "attraction." This is why Aquarium dates are so popular in Korea/Japan.
practical examples of banter: If she freaks about a big fish, bug, or frog, you can be the "strong man" beside her-- or tease her about it to get her annoyed and slapping you (pumping up the adrenaline, physical contact--
heck, you're stealing for 2nd base already). Inversely, if she's totally unphazed by things like that, you can complement her on it-- "so bad ass that you're cool with things like that", or tease her for being a tom-boy and like-wise get her annoyed and slapping you for that. You can even pretend to be scared shitless yourself, being like "PROTECT ME! LOL" and jump behind her, grabbing her shoulders-- this'll get her laughing and tease you (at the same time making physical contact-- "wow, I never knew he had such man-hands"); either way, she'll be laughing her ass off in SOME shape, which is good. Also spend
extra time comically reading descriptions of animal mating rituals or courtship behavior-- get her mind thinking about *stuff* subconsciously.
Point is that a date like that can help you push the right buttons. When you go to a place that has cues for mutual experience like this, there's a lot you can do.
Point is invite her out (not necessarily calling it a date... in fact, don't...), and go DO something that you experience together. Movies are not particularly great initially since you can't talk-- better date for a developed couple.