I am beginning to feel insulted by the lack of respect rssp1 seems to have for the integrity of the alliance. More and more he's willing to claim that I was worth nothing more than a vote and that is fucking laughable. You think a dick waving contest within our own alliance is what should be the final decider in this game? That if I was the public face and went out to execute the plans we made together that I would be deserving instead? Would you rather we accost people together just to let them know we were tighter with each other than we were with them? Would you have been as loyal to me if I was the public face? Want to toss out metrics like voting correctly and challenge wins? We agreed on the votes the whole game (Read: I wasn't sheeping you) and won when it counted (I personally pulled out a clutch win either for Otaka or for us at least 3 times).
My game is not at all lazy, and in fact played out pretty much how I intended it to from the beginning. I drew from the strong precedent set by players in my position; by establishing the proper connections early and influencing the game without attracting attention themselves, under the radar players have beaten top tier threats even in final tribal time and time again even as the game evolves. I would trust only the closest allies, and do so absolutely. I would stand up for myself when necessary and do just well enough in challenges. This was never necessary, however; the only time I ever felt I was even close to being in danger was when billy won immunity in f4. I talked to him just enough to confirm that he had no respect for me and not only would I not get taken to rocks, I'd go to f2 in every case. I would never set plans in stone for final X other than 2-3 because there's only so far any alliance can go, preferring to read the playing field and make sure my vote was in the right place every cycle. In a forum game where communication is neither regular nor forced by circumstance and environment, this meant not seeming too eager by trying to get an opinion on or gather votes from everyone, playing aloof and getting my trusted info on alliances from rssp1, who would neither lie to nor manipulate me. The minute people thought I wasn't playing the game, I'd already secured my spot and by extension boosted rssp1's position considerably. Inasmuch as he was negotiating, my role in the alliance significantly changed the dynamics of negotiation when some people didn't even know we were working together.
The fact of the matter is, outside of rssp1 I considered basically everyone to be a threat because I couldn't trust them to go to the final 2 with me if there was one (final 2 is determined in the first 5 minutes for most people as it was for me, or at least I felt it safe to assume that) and they were otherwise all strong players in their own right. In forum survivor there's not anyone looking for free screentime, no ridiculously dumb or violent stirrers casted to create Reality TV Drama; you are all smart people and any path that would have gotten you to the final 2 would have been calculated. As long as in every tribal council there was a palpable divisive conflict between good players, I could rest easy. In this aspect I'll say I got lucky with how my tribe and the merge panned out. On Moto pre or post swap I may not have won as often, nor survived to the merge(the same can be said of rssp1 I feel). I also knew from the beginning twin couldn't go the whole game without flipping on the 5 but I'm lucky that happened earlier rather than later because it fractured the whole tribe and put a target on twin's back. After that, there were so many bombs in zorbees, trace, billy, RODAN, Walrein, and even Yeti from a social standpoint that couldn't risk taking us out before f4 without some grave reason to do so.
Remember, rssp1, when I told you to make sure Trace had the idea to vote zorbees because psychologically it made him more likely to be trusted in carrying out the vote? Even in, and often especially in situations of obvious play, it was very important to me to make sure that I wasn't aggressive in our conversations. Asking questions when I disagreed with plans, agreeing wholeheartedly when I had had the same idea, but never pushing, never trying to make sure certain people were in our final four, or in our alliance, never giving off the sense that I had an agenda outside of us because it was completely fucking unnecessary to. All I needed was your loyalty and understanding that we were working toward each other's mutual benefit, because that was my connection to the outside world, and my insurance against a catastrophe (such as zorbees winning immunity a couple times and also deciding to turn and gain more outside support against me) that never even came close to happening except with billy at the very end.
My game was subtle and tight in all circumstances, a strong, calculated under the radar game to parallel the strong, calculated under the radar games of many past winners of the show. rssp1 and I worked together wonderfully, and there's no mistaking that in addition to, and as an extension of working to our mutual benefit he also worked to serve himself. However, the same can absolutely be said of me while I had a better standing should our alliance be broken and less psychological bad blood with the jury in any case. I truly believe that this game's vote should come down to personal philosophy and what kind of game you respect, and I also believe that my game is worthy of the title of Sole Survivor. Whatever decision is reached by the jury, it has truly been a pleasure. Thank you.