how much is too much?
ive been going back and forth on it for a while, normally anything other than weed starts to make me paranoid about dependency within a few consecutive days use (read amphetamines, benzos, poppy tea/opis) and stopping is no big deal, but lately ive been doing blow too much for my tastes two or three times a week just because its so low key and freely(ish) available to me, coupled with maybe a day of pills of some kind and a few nights of drinking in a week all mixed with copious amounts of reefer, (dabbed/tincture/flowers/hash) make me feel like although i may not have a problem with any one substance in particular barring prehaps ganja and coke, i have a problem with drugs and alcohol. polysubstance abuse ?
i wish i had a solid k hookup but i know id be pissing in a bag soon if i did.
at the same time, ive been in the studio working my ass off, and seeing the rewards firsthand with my glassblowing skills improving by leaps and bounds, (i study glass at school) however i think im starting to fuck up.
im not sure where im going with this, its probably long and formatted terribly, but i figured i give her an old bumparoo and try to grab some advice from you all about my use if you bothered reading this far, thanks.