I agree that "the mask" tm feels extremely dirty to wear, and I can't even really wear it convincingly as I can't hide my emotions/intentions for shit. I think that trying to force others to wear a mask is an extremely wrong thing to do in order to achieve some "good vibes only" policy at work. I agree that that is shit.
I think that the reason that it is bad to enforce on others is that, to me, trying to remain positive in all conditions could be a positive act of sacrifice on one's part. By avoiding expressing negative emotions, perhaps one may prevent others mood from being negatively affected as well. Particularly in high stress times in the workplace, I am thankful for people that keep a positive attitude.
I sometimes get that inkling when interacting with somebody that the happiness and jokiness is just a thin facade. At the very least, I don't know how one would be so positive without acting. I know a lot of people like that actually. But with said people, I do genuinely get the impression that they care strongly about others. As expressing negative emotions has next to zero practical application, I think that "faking it until you make it" and attempting to uplift others by retaining a positive mood might be an ideal.
When I get into a self-improvement kick, I often try and fail to keep it good vibes only. I find that I tend to be received somewhat better, but feel much worse internally. That may be because I am carrying a greater emotional burden, which could be seen as positive or negative on an individual basis.
Thanks for the take, as I enjoyed responding to you. This is something I've thought a lot about before.
Time for lots of typing because I feel a rant coming.
I said this because at my job I was just written up for “insubordination” and when I asked them to elaborate they said “you were asked to be positive and you refused”. So a little backstory, my boss is on vacation. We are “essential workers” during a pandemic, but okay. His assistant is an abrasive, disrespectful man who has no indoor voice and whose preferred method of communication is barking.
All week long this man has been disrespectful to me. He’s told me “ that’s your job” and walked away when I asked for his assistance. He put his hand up in my face and said “I’m not even listening” when I answered a question he asked. He scheduled me to come in first thing in the morning after a closing shift, which is against policy, but more importantly for an insomniac that needs the good drugs to sleep, can make me lose about four days of sleep afterward. Which it did. I addressed this a week earlier, but he didn’t change it.
So he overhears me tell a woman I work with that the schedule is bad and says “you know what, if you’re not gonna be positive you can go home.” I said “I don’t want to be here anyway” with clear regard to a conversation we’d just had about me not getting any sleep. So he said “fine, I don’t wanna see you, bye” and stormed off.
Two days later I’m cornered in the office by him and another upper management guy and told that by going home, I was refusing to be positive and that was insubordination. I said “you don’t control what I say” and they disagreed. I listed all the many ways I felt I’d been disrespected that week, to which they replied “so you think what you did is okay?”. I said “no, that’s not what I said”, which they repeatedly argued with and wouldn’t let me continue speaking at that point.
The best part is they bring up the woman I was speaking to and try to guilt me and shame me by saying “she wears a heart monitor, you’re stressing her out with your complaining.” ..... except she was complaining too.... and I am the one she asked to monitor her for symptoms in case something went wrong.... because she and I closed together the night before and were so understaffed she worked long stretches by herself and skipped her lunch break. So we were complaining to each other.
And I am written up for not being positive.
It is this kind of twisting of what positivity actually is that makes me disgusted by it. As there is no practical application for voicing negativity (though if you’re speaking to honest, well meaning people, they may respond to your negativity and try to enact change on their part instead of trying to pretend everyone is happy), there is no practical application for false optimism. If my direct superior is incompetent, disrespectful, and insecure, I will not pretend that I am satisfied so that he feels better. Is he going to pretend to be competent to make me feel better? No, because he’s not capable of doing so.
It’s like when you tell a grieving mother it was god’s plan. This is kinda of a second hot take in a way, but it’s related. That is a positive outlook, but it is false. You cannot claim to know that there is some grand plan for everyone and that god’s plan for your baby was to kill it. AND WHAT KINDA BENEVOLENT GOD DOES THAT. But never mind. Notably, nurses are now trained not to say this sort of thing. Because it is false and hurtful. I just wanted to demonstrate how this kind of attitude isn’t just about workplace bullshit. When my sister (who struggled to conceive due to ovarian cysts) carried a baby to 8 months, put together a nursery, bought the clothes and everything, had to decide between giving birth and her son being alive for a few minutes, then dying, or letting him die in the womb and delivering him stillborn, the nurse said it was “god’s plan”. For months after that, my suicidal sister would talk about how angry it made her. She was obviously devastated by loss, but filled with rage by this attempt to frame her loss with fake positive silver lining bullshit.
To summarize, the mask is bad mmkay. While maybe there is no benefit to whining or complaining (though there is also no harm done in small time trash talk with colleagues) I think there is a huge benefit to not only allowing your emotions (whether small like mine or immense like my sister’s) to process naturally and freely so long as you’re not... ya know... stuffing anyone in the fridge... I am a rage filled, spiteful, generally miserable person. And I keep all of that in check for the sake of others and my relationships with them. But to superficially pretend all the time that I am not that person would drive me to the point that I am unable to check myself. It is unhealthy.
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