hey
so i wasn't going to really post for this, especially because i'm not a huge fan of posting stuff about myself on forums. but i made
this post almost four years ago now, and i've come a long way since then. all my friends know about me and are so supportive. my immediate family knows about me, and while they're not fully supportive, they're not stopping me from going ahead with it. everything has gotten a lot better since that post. i'm extremely fortunate to be in the situation i'm in, having the support networks i do, and having the people most close to me remain with me through it all.
the reason i'm posting today is because i finally, after all this time, started estrogen. i never thought in my wildest dreams i'd get this far, and on a much darker note i didn't think i'd live to see the day where i'd get to this point. to anyone struggling with their own gender identity, while it's hypocritical of me to say this, given how everything worked out for me, don't give up. don't give up on yourself. there are so many times within the last few years where i've told myself that transitioning isn't worth it, that i'll be unhappy regardless, that living a sad life as a cis male would be better than the dystopia trans people face within society. but i'm so glad i pushed through that, i'm so glad that i've gotten as far as i have. life may never be perfect, but this is undoubtedly the way for me to go about making it better.
i've gone through suicidal episodes in the past, i've been in really rough spots, but being where i am right now, with the people i care about, is really amazing and i can't help but feel happy. i'm so happy with the people i've met throughout the last few years, due to me coming out and sharing experiences with others. the people within this community truly are amazing wholesome people, and i'm beyond grateful that i've gotten to meet so many of you.
i'm scared this post is going to come off as me saying "hi look at me i'm so happy" but that's not the point at all. i just want to encourage others to stay strong and persist through the hard times. it's not easy, but it will get better. thank you for reading.