that's fair. i dont really have a response to this that would like, assauge those concerns, probably.
we've never played before and idk how much you read of cool weapon or matrices where i've on a number of occasions stated my dislike of d1. so i wanted to open that like, i don't really have any takes especially on day 1 where i put 0 faith in any vote or read before the time in which suddenly votes are wagons. i havent figured out when d1 goes from stuff like "psy tunnels dusk" or "jalmont votes the oldest account" to legitimate wagons.
people ask me things like my opinions on people or situations and it often puts me in a weird place because i dont instinctively develop opinions. i'll develop like, a couple of reads throughout a game (for example in matrices, hal & realiti scum) at best, and that's usually late d2 or mid d3. so when i get asked for a readlist or my take on conversations, i'm usually developing actual thoughts on them as i'm responding.