Caraxius

i a iits the future of me, this you saw it because you came from the future of me. Im such a bad guy heeh i made you read this because of what ill do,how evil do i become do i reallly lose all empathy or does it still hurt just as much as ever in the futur to ruin lives? I really am empathetic i hate hurting others but i hate a lot more hurting me, I hate when others attack me. Ive always been taking blows for a long time I just keep putting my head down n take the hits and i flicnhed a lot but i never once tried to trhow a punch back. what if it misses and i get a hook right in the opening caused b gaurd drop. I dont want to do that anymore. i can be way more cruel than others, i saw aniems, and i read mangas, especially those cool chinese ones, manhuas or something,, I thinkkk i can be as ruthless as that. Ive always been trying to delay it, a bad guy cant ask for mercy. but if i continue to be good, i can ask for mercy. but i think ill die a good day, only a bad guy can thriveand survive here. I wish someone would punch a hole through my chest n take my tiny heart out n sing it lullabies, im rude irl, my mom said m monotonous, i dont hav ftriends nbecause i psuhed them all they look so tiny infront of what i want, but i dont ebven walk towards what i want. i walked saway from pwople to go to the other side, but im walking away from both ppeople and what i want, im walking into the dark. I can write formally but i write liek this because a fool can never be a danger, he can get closer, and a fool blends in so well whil being able to get so much learning information. I think Ill be a fineman when I grow up, i didnt get that many gifts, but i can steal them from others.