*sigh*
That perfectly describes my life from Middle School through High School. I just endured and tried to be myself. My thought process was, and still is, if you are my friend than you will stick with me and never desert me. I will not change who I am just to keep a friend who will drop me for "better" ones.
I know that sounds harsh, but that is how I view things. A true friend does not wear a "mask" because he/she must be "real".
Anyway, that describes me perfectly. I lost many "friends" to someone who was "better" than I am. In reality, that "cool" person that was not cool at all.
Now, I am not saying that I am cool, but some people are just not....binding, I guess you could say.
Do you get what I am saying?