That is a lot of contradictions and coincidences man. You should honestly just admit to your mistake because you are making it worse. From what I can tell you are (or were) a well-respected member of the community and if you just admitted to your wrongdoing from the start this shit storm wouldn't have happened. Also, you are saying people are harassing you, well the truth is no one is. Some people are disgusted and disappointed, yes, but no one actually means you any harm. Also in one of your posts, I saw that you were upset with the memes and that's just stupid. Memes are never meant to hurt anyone their only purpose is to have fun.
Now I would personally be fine with this if you were just playing dumb and bull shitting but you just took it too far. Now you are trying to guilt-trip people into feeling sorry for you. That is disgusting and manipulative. If you want this to stop then admit to your mistake and leave this all behind. If you apologize now all this will only be remembered as "oh remember that one time drew played against himself in the tour lol." If you don't apologize, you will lose the respect of many people and it will be very hard to redeem yourself.
Apologize and leave this behind or lose the trust of many people, it's your choice.
And don't you dare try to guilt-trip people.