I appreciate this message,
1. I do believe my game was the best and therefore that my answers at an FTC *could* beat anyone. Psy at f8 did guarantee me FTC but I fw the “I’m not gonna vote for you because of that” mentality
So I will highlight the other MAJOR reason and the one that probably mattered to me the most personally
F10 was as I stated before, was the low point in my heroes journey, and totter was not my push at f9. That was two cycles in a row where (despite f9 not being detrimental to my game) I voted outside of my direct own agenda.
Eli wasn’t my direct push at f8 and I do think Psy was guaranteed FTC potentially over me if he survived f8. The main factor for me was that I needed a *successful push of my own agenda to put myself back into control of the game*
Psy vs Eli was hard for me because even though I do think Psy played better than eli, that eli was a bigger jury threat.
Nonetheless I made a tough decision I knew the jury potentially could be initially against, but I did so to put myself back in control of the vote and in a position where I would decide the votes for the rest of the game.
It’s not that I wanted an easy road to FTC, it was that I was okay with risking an absolute battle at FTC as long as I knew I played the best and could prove it. And I truly was an untouchable vote decider onwards from f8->FTC.
I understand thinking that Psy at F8 could’ve been taking the “easy way out”, but to me it was the road less traveled by that put me in a position to run the game which I’m hoping translates well in this message and in FTC as a whole. I will say confidently that I always played for 1st place since day 1.
I love this answer a lot, one of the most Ryo things I have read.
I'll say one thing in response to it.
Would pushing Eli have been unsuccessful for your agenda? Because it seems like that is what you are implying. Would this lack of success be from the worry that Psy takes your FTC slot (and not Eli's), or because it would threaten your relationship with Tommy / someone else. Or is it a secret third option where you are worried that (even though you believe your game was the best and you could prove it at FTC) that Psy could prove his game better even though he, as you admit, was less of a jury threat than Eli at the time?
i do not deny one bit that you were an untouchable vote decider from f8 -> FTC, but i am still not convinced that this is something unique to you or something that was the best look for YOUR game. An analogy i'd use here is jack of all trades master of none. It feels like you are trying to play a visible threat game, an UTR game, and an underdog game at the same time.