Well, I talked about how shitty my winter track season was, but I was getting ready for spring now. I trained a lot for the past few weeks and I ran a sub 5 minute mile, so I thought I was going to do well now... turns out that I have a fucking stress fracture and can't run for another 2-3 MONTHS and have to wear these horrible leg brace things for 6-8 weeks. All because I ran through my injury during winter track and injured myself even more. Watching all my teammates get better than me and watching myself lag behind is just too much for me now, I was hoping to reach somewhere between 4:40-4:50 by the end of this season but now I know I have no chance, plus I'll be really shitty when I come back next year (which is my final year, senior year.) I hope I can look back in the future now and find this shit stupid, but I got to admit that there were so many things in my life connected to running, not just my times, I don't know what to do anymore.
But i think the biggest mistake I made was how much emphasis I put on running. I was never a great runner anyhow, I just did it for fun. And back when I was running, I had so many unrealistic expectations I could never achieve that it's kinda laughable. Why was running such a big part of my life? I can just achieve other things, however small they are. I don't know how I'm going to see this in the future, but there's still time to avoid any more mistakes and move onto something else...