Any excuse I make will sound pitiful in comparison to what wrongs I did. However, I noticed to myself that my body was deteriorating and needed a break, from my obsessive insanity over the female users of smogon. I made sure I cut off all relationships I've ever made with others so if I do return (which I did) I would be met with the same response as you have, and bearsfan. And the rest of the other members of the community. This discourages me from ever trying to build any sort of Pokemon or non-Pokemon related relationship with anyone, and forces me to actually focus on things that matter in my life, which is namely my own family. I am here just to reclaim my Pokemon from old acquaintances if they'll let me, and I'll be on my way. I'm sorry for what I did, but I did think of you as a good friend over the talks we had on IRC.