RODAN
Banned deucer.
I'm not great at typing long posts, or being formal or anything just a fair warning.
Recently I came out to my mom as having relapsed back into depression, if you know me you know I have struggled with it a lot in the past, to the point of suicidal tendencies. This time isn't as much about me wanting to end it, more like me not finding joy in the things i previously enjoyed anymore. I am extremely apathetic towards everything.
This is probably due to the fact that I have been living at home with my parents, barely leaving the house or interacting with people outside of my family. I feel alone, which is why I spend so much time posting on the forums here and talking on IRC. Because it gives me this illusion of having real life friends. Not to downplay the friends I've made on this site, as they are extremely genuine friendships that I will hold dear forever.
Another thing that is pretty blatantly obvious if you hang around me long enough is that i'm fat. I am very fat, and it is extremely hard for me to do anything with my life, even if I had the motivation to do stuff - I fear that my body could just give out on me at any given moment. I live in constant fear of injury, I will not get a drivers license for this reason. And it is extremely scary for me to even grasp the concept of buses.
I don't want this to be a pity party or anything, but I felt that since this site has helped me so much in the past that I would ask: How do you cope with depression?
Consider this an early 7k I guess
xenu, internet Shaka Brah Mr.E THE_IRON_...KENYAN? shade antemortem zorbees faint Exeggutor and other members of #weeb. And my other friends cookie CaptKirby Jibaku and the rest. I just want to say thanks for everything. Here's to 7k more I guess (although if that happens assume my problem hasn't been solved!)
Recently I came out to my mom as having relapsed back into depression, if you know me you know I have struggled with it a lot in the past, to the point of suicidal tendencies. This time isn't as much about me wanting to end it, more like me not finding joy in the things i previously enjoyed anymore. I am extremely apathetic towards everything.
This is probably due to the fact that I have been living at home with my parents, barely leaving the house or interacting with people outside of my family. I feel alone, which is why I spend so much time posting on the forums here and talking on IRC. Because it gives me this illusion of having real life friends. Not to downplay the friends I've made on this site, as they are extremely genuine friendships that I will hold dear forever.
Another thing that is pretty blatantly obvious if you hang around me long enough is that i'm fat. I am very fat, and it is extremely hard for me to do anything with my life, even if I had the motivation to do stuff - I fear that my body could just give out on me at any given moment. I live in constant fear of injury, I will not get a drivers license for this reason. And it is extremely scary for me to even grasp the concept of buses.
I don't want this to be a pity party or anything, but I felt that since this site has helped me so much in the past that I would ask: How do you cope with depression?
Consider this an early 7k I guess
xenu, internet Shaka Brah Mr.E THE_IRON_...KENYAN? shade antemortem zorbees faint Exeggutor and other members of #weeb. And my other friends cookie CaptKirby Jibaku and the rest. I just want to say thanks for everything. Here's to 7k more I guess (although if that happens assume my problem hasn't been solved!)