i really like poetry but i know even less about it than i do about most things
the love song of j alfred prufrock is probably my favourite poem but part of that doesnt sit well with me because its like saying your favourite band is the rolling stones only with a more dilettante feel to it so i guess its like saying your favourite band is the pixies
poetry in general makes me wish i was multilingual. i think english is beautiful in a weird way but i can't help but feel that, it being my native and only tongue, my opinion on it is about as valid as my opinion on canada would be had i never ventured outside it. i love that english can be clunky and sussurant in the same fucking sentence. it can be rough and it can be undulate before youve even registered whatever emotion or thought it evokes, and i guess the poetry i like the most is the kind that takes that confusing shit about english and runs with it, conjuring a nebula of coarseness and pulchritude.
but sometimes i get nervous because i can't accurately explain
what i like about poetry. i have an affinity for words and moreso for words that taste good on my tongue, and some words or phrases just hit me not for their meaning but just because they look and feel and taste right together. by not dissecting the piece to bits i can take solace in its sounds and not have to worry about what it means to me on anything more than a visceral, even primal level, but i also don't totally do it justice that way. it's complicated i guess, sometimes i can't help but understand a work and it occasionally ruins it for me.
anyway here's the love song of j alfred prufrock by my main man t.s. eliot.
http://www.bartleby.com/198/1.html
it's a bit long and it's the kind of poem i don't really enjoy discussing cause people write their thesis on it and shit and all i really want to talk about is how '
decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse' gives me this odd velocity of speech, this buildup of momentum that's maybe emotional but maybe physical and through its inertia alone i'm carried to the end of the poem, struggling to pay attention to anything else.
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is it perfume from a dress/that makes me so digress?' is something i've learned to ask myself when i do stupid shit while thinking with my dick.
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i should have been a pair of ragged claws/scuttling across the floors of silent seas' is everything i love about english. you have this cacophonous, warped aggregation of sheer verbal heft in the phrase 'ragged claws' and then you're eased into the soothing sibilance of the second line. i love this part aesthetically but it's also goddamned tragic and the two aspects of it fight and fuck in my brain and i'm left feeling empty or awash with something nameless.
I grow old … I grow old …[SIZE=-2] 120[/SIZE]
I shall wear the bottoms of my trousers rolled.
Shall I part my hair behind? Do I dare to eat a peach?
I shall wear white flannel trousers, and walk upon the beach.
I have heard the mermaids singing, each to each.
I do not think that they will sing to me. [SIZE=-2] 125[/SIZE]
I have seen them riding seaward on the waves
Combing the white hair of the waves blown back
When the wind blows the water white and black.
We have lingered in the chambers of the sea
By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown[SIZE=-2] 130[/SIZE]
Till human voices wake us, and we drown.
edit: how the fuck did i forget line 120-121 in my initial post aaaa
i want to get this whole thing tattooed on me but it's so puerile and sophomoric to consider that the ultimate measure of devotion and so i always talk myself out of it. depending on my level of suggestibility '
i do not think that they will sing to me' makes me tear up. it's funny how the most honest admission is usually so much more heartbreaking than any verbal or written histrionics (no doubt why will smith's last line in
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GmerFuzRNZ4 hits me so hard), and that's maybe what bugs me a little about poetry. you run and run and run and try to find the right words for things but sometimes they're the first words out of your sobbing mouth.
there's a lot of poetry i'd love to mention here but i'm kinda tired so for now i'm just gonna ramble on about a guy i'm really really fond of named rives
NICKEL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w5wbToZkJwY
the poem is lousy with meaning, anyone can tell you that. most of us have been hurt and most of us pine for shit but rives captures concupiscence with the best-tasting words i've ever heard (i think i used that line when describing him to soot once but i really like it and so im using it again). '
headbutts in the hotel bed the bashful maid made badly' is one of my favourite sentence fragments of all time. you have to work so hard to get those b's out and it's so awkward and bumpy, like putt-putting up and down a comically cartoonish series of hills.
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now im just teasing you like a thorough lover does, because you always said that ive got smartass on remote control and i always said oh im not even remotely controllabullll-uh' makes me feel like i'm in that relationship and it's weird and uncomfortable and perfect.
i love almost every word in this poem and i could write how i feel about everything but that would take too long
IF I CONTROLLED THE INTERNET
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gu_PQBmk-6c
this one is less surreptitious with its humour but the audience still laughs at awkward moments which sucks but oh well. i don't like this poem much by rives standards mostly because it's a bit too corny (and i know corny and UNFLINCHINGLY TRUE are interchangeable depending on which self-described aesthete you ask) but there is one passage that makes me feel a lot
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if i controlled the internet you could email dead people. they would not email you back. but you'd get an automated reply. their name in your inbox, that's all you wanted anyway. and a message saying "hey, its me. i miss you."'
this gets me every fucking time. it's so honest and simple and relatable and painful and exultant. he turns life into words like some kind of alchemist.
LEVITATE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v4fVoT4P9Kw&feature=related
this is an example of a poem that i don't want to try to understand because i care more about the vehicles used and the routes taken than the point b
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and then half an hour later when the moms had gone back to the clingwrap and the other kids of course were playing freeze tag around those fiberglass animals with the springs beneath them and the laughter i sat down and asked the boy who could levitate "does it taste like a nose bleed" and he goes "yeah like a nose buh-leed only backwards"'
this passage makes me fucking giddy. the way it's written, the way it's spoken, the way he spices different words. the notable pauses at 'cling wrap' and 'freeze tag' give it this zigzaggy feel and the modulations and elongations on things like 'nose buh-leed' are so important to me for some reason that i don't care how pregnant with meaning they are or aren't.
basically every one of this guy's poems is fantastic and it was really hard to not write about them all but maybe later but there are so many other poets to talk about in my next post WHAT AN OVERWHELMING THREAD