A long time ago I never knew myself.
Then the memory of shame birthed its gift.
No more.
The small one.
The weak one.
The frightened one.
Running from beatings,
deflating,
I'm becoming more than a man,
more than you ever were.
Driven & burning to rise beyond Jesus.
I'm born again with snake's eyes
Becoming
God-sized
I found my life was slipping through my hands.
Perhaps in death my life won't be so bad.
I can see you, can fuck you, inside of you.
Staring through your eyes.
Belittle your friends to serve me,
to suck me, to realize my saving grasp.
I of suicide. I the unlord
I'm born again with snake's eyes
Becoming
God-sized