First off I apologize if someone else has done this before or if this belongs in a different place...
Anyway, if you believe you are or have been in love, feel free to post here about it here.
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I am currently led to believe I am in love at this moment. I have never felt the way I do around this girl. I think about her, see her if at all possible, and cannot imagine my life without her. We have been going out six months and I see no end in sight. I can talk to her about anything: I'm to the point where I want her to live in happiness, even at the sacrifice of my own.
We met almost six months ago at a camp, held by the local children's theatre. Every summer I do it, and 2008 held no special exception. I go to an all-boys school, so I know very well how pigs they are. I decided to try their approach(very unusual of me) and scout the girls over there. I admit, I didn't see anything spectacular at first, but I did see a couple of "good" lookers. Anyway, the first time I talked to "her" was right before dance practice on the first day. I think she said I should go out for a feminine role, which on any usual day wouldn't have irked me. However, on that day I decided to flex my muscles at her to show how "feminine" I was: to this day she says it was very disturbing at the time.
Next day nothing special happened either till about an hour before we let out. I saw Amy(that's her name) sitting in the corner of the room drawing. I love to draw myself, so I walked over to get a preview. It was a very well drawn-out comic, though the general plot kind of went over my head with a quick scan. Amy seemed aware of my confusion and pointed out that their were "inside jokes" that I may not get. I laughed and looked over the comic once more to see if I could pick up on them. After rattling my brain for a minute, it dawned on me exactly what she had drawn: it was a parody of RE4, complete with Leon in boxers and Ashley waking him up for the release of Silent Hill 5. To find a girl intrested in games was hard enough, not to mention finding one who likes the same kind of games as you. I suggested that Amy give Leon heart-shaped boxers "for some good ole' eye-candy". She quickly took the suggestion and we spent the majority of that and the next day discussing it with her.
Next day I stuck onto her like glue: so much, in fact, that I quickly became aware of it and began to question my exact feelings for Amy. During this time of "self-exploration", one of mine(and also Amy's) good friend caught me staring at her and asked me if I liked her. Caught off-guard, I replied "I don't know", and quickly cursed at myself afterwards as I saw her run off and talk to Amy...
>_< I'll learn someday to keep my mouth shut.
Next day I learned a LOT about Amy: about her popularity at the theatre, about her amazing acting and singing abilities, and I found myself more and more drawn to her till I knew I liked her. There was a problem though: I had been through this before. I've had a good friendship with someone and ruined it because I admitted my feelings toward her. I decided to just let luck decide if I would ask her out: I told myself not to pussy out of the chance to ask her out if given the chance.
That chance came the next day.
With about 40 minutes of class left, we found ourselves together alone on stage right. We sat in silence for about 15 minutes, "looking over the script", when I took a chair and faced it toward her suddenly. I knew I wouldn't do it unless I forced myself. I looked straight at her and said:
"Amy, I know we're good friends and I really enjoy hanging out with you, but I have to confess I like you more than that... "
She looked at me hard with those big, soft brown eyes for a second and replied "You mean like what?"
"I..."
I choked.
...
No literally, a stray camper came from behind and thought it would be funny to choke me with a block of wood.
After getting him off me, I quickly turned around and said:
"I like you enough to ask you to go out with me."
Time froze. I stopped breathing, feeling, living...
Seconds passed by.
Amy then shrugged her shoulders and said "OK."
I sat there for a second and asked for another moment. I leaned back in the chair and yelled "YES!" at the top of my lungs and took my place by her side.
I have much more to say about this, but it will have to wait for a time when I'm not typing through my I-touch. But I will say that the next day I didn't exactly leave the best impression as boyfriend material...
So me and Amy are in the lunch line when our friend(who is also my one and only ex) walks up to us:
Friend: hey Branden(me), can I borrow you girlfriend?
Me: only if I can watch
Amy+friend: ...
Me: *mentally kicks own ass*
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The very first day in the relationship for us was.... awkward. Neither of us had a clue what to do, so generally I just put my arm around her and talked to her a lot. Little did I realize that I was making her incredibly uncomfortable, and a friend mentioned that Amy liked her own space so I gave her some of that. The weekend came and I wasn't sure I was to do anything: I called her at 9:00 pm on Saturday to talk to her and I waited till that late to make sure she was done with dinner and stuff, but apparently that was the time where she goes to take a bath(which is the complete opposite to me: I take them in the mornings).
So next day I talk to her on the phone and I could tell she was incredibly.... unintrested. I was pacing the kitchen trying to figure out what I had done exactly while talking to her, but nothing came to mind really. I just assumed she was absorbed in playing the sims and eventually dropped the conversation for that day.
The next week we still had camp, so we were sure to see each other(obviously): this made me happy and sad on two accounts. I was happy because, well hey, it's my girlfriend! But I was said because I wasn't sure if she said yes because she had feelings for me also or if it was just a "meh I'll give him a chance." thing. Which it turned out to be, btw. Well, it became apparently obvious that she was avoiding me and it was getting on my nerves. Not because she was avoiding me: I don't mind that as much as I probably should have. I was just bothered the whole time because I thought I did something wrong. So finally one time I got her attention and told her I just wanted to talk about nothing serious.
"Amy, I want you to know two things about me: I'm stupid and simple. It's a terrible combination, so if I do something wrong your going to have to tell me immediantly otherwise I won't know and I'll do it again."
Amy's expression to that was unreadable: I thought I could read into her a little, but since Thursday she's been a miniature human puzzle! She replied "OK same for me please." and quietly walked away after some chit chat. Apparently I was failing somewhere and I needed to pick up fast....
Wednsday comes and Amy, me, two other friends, and Druggedfox all went to the mall together to hang out. Really, I don't know what exactly happened that day: I remember playing DDR, eating dinner, and small other stuff while looking around at different shops. Druggy+I left first before the others did, and somewhere between that time and the next day Amy realized she had an intrest in me because she seeked me out and gave me a hug.
Well things only went uphill from there: we were going(still going) very slowly, but we were making progress at least. We hung out during the week and for our first real date we went to see a movie(how original). Later on I got my driver's license(August 16th to be exact xD) and I could very easily drive to her house where we met even more.
There was one small issue coming up and that was her birthday. To be honest, I had no idea what to get her: but I didn't have to look far. Turns out my step-grandmother took all of the grandchildren out to grab clay animals and we could paint them however we like. Well, I decided to grab the classical pig because I was bored and instead of the usual pink I painted it gray: then as a joke I gave it a bleeding eye, black toes, and stitches where the coin insert slot was and made it a cool zombie pig!
Yes I gave it to her for her birthday too! She loves it(or so she says), and it's on her desk whenever I walk into her room. Her birthday was fun also: she had a good dinner at her house and I really got to know her parents a lot better. I can't remember how exactly we got into it, but me and amy were cuddling upstairs and her brother somehow hit the subject of kissing: which me and Amy hadn't done yet. Needless to say, we did my the end of the night(as I was leaving), and the whole way home I set "drops of jupiter" on repeat. The song and kiss were still on repeat in my head for the entire school week also.
Anyway, if you believe you are or have been in love, feel free to post here about it here.
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I am currently led to believe I am in love at this moment. I have never felt the way I do around this girl. I think about her, see her if at all possible, and cannot imagine my life without her. We have been going out six months and I see no end in sight. I can talk to her about anything: I'm to the point where I want her to live in happiness, even at the sacrifice of my own.
We met almost six months ago at a camp, held by the local children's theatre. Every summer I do it, and 2008 held no special exception. I go to an all-boys school, so I know very well how pigs they are. I decided to try their approach(very unusual of me) and scout the girls over there. I admit, I didn't see anything spectacular at first, but I did see a couple of "good" lookers. Anyway, the first time I talked to "her" was right before dance practice on the first day. I think she said I should go out for a feminine role, which on any usual day wouldn't have irked me. However, on that day I decided to flex my muscles at her to show how "feminine" I was: to this day she says it was very disturbing at the time.
Next day nothing special happened either till about an hour before we let out. I saw Amy(that's her name) sitting in the corner of the room drawing. I love to draw myself, so I walked over to get a preview. It was a very well drawn-out comic, though the general plot kind of went over my head with a quick scan. Amy seemed aware of my confusion and pointed out that their were "inside jokes" that I may not get. I laughed and looked over the comic once more to see if I could pick up on them. After rattling my brain for a minute, it dawned on me exactly what she had drawn: it was a parody of RE4, complete with Leon in boxers and Ashley waking him up for the release of Silent Hill 5. To find a girl intrested in games was hard enough, not to mention finding one who likes the same kind of games as you. I suggested that Amy give Leon heart-shaped boxers "for some good ole' eye-candy". She quickly took the suggestion and we spent the majority of that and the next day discussing it with her.
Next day I stuck onto her like glue: so much, in fact, that I quickly became aware of it and began to question my exact feelings for Amy. During this time of "self-exploration", one of mine(and also Amy's) good friend caught me staring at her and asked me if I liked her. Caught off-guard, I replied "I don't know", and quickly cursed at myself afterwards as I saw her run off and talk to Amy...
>_< I'll learn someday to keep my mouth shut.
Next day I learned a LOT about Amy: about her popularity at the theatre, about her amazing acting and singing abilities, and I found myself more and more drawn to her till I knew I liked her. There was a problem though: I had been through this before. I've had a good friendship with someone and ruined it because I admitted my feelings toward her. I decided to just let luck decide if I would ask her out: I told myself not to pussy out of the chance to ask her out if given the chance.
That chance came the next day.
With about 40 minutes of class left, we found ourselves together alone on stage right. We sat in silence for about 15 minutes, "looking over the script", when I took a chair and faced it toward her suddenly. I knew I wouldn't do it unless I forced myself. I looked straight at her and said:
"Amy, I know we're good friends and I really enjoy hanging out with you, but I have to confess I like you more than that... "
She looked at me hard with those big, soft brown eyes for a second and replied "You mean like what?"
"I..."
I choked.
...
No literally, a stray camper came from behind and thought it would be funny to choke me with a block of wood.
After getting him off me, I quickly turned around and said:
"I like you enough to ask you to go out with me."
Time froze. I stopped breathing, feeling, living...
Seconds passed by.
Amy then shrugged her shoulders and said "OK."
I sat there for a second and asked for another moment. I leaned back in the chair and yelled "YES!" at the top of my lungs and took my place by her side.
I have much more to say about this, but it will have to wait for a time when I'm not typing through my I-touch. But I will say that the next day I didn't exactly leave the best impression as boyfriend material...
So me and Amy are in the lunch line when our friend(who is also my one and only ex) walks up to us:
Friend: hey Branden(me), can I borrow you girlfriend?
Me: only if I can watch
Amy+friend: ...
Me: *mentally kicks own ass*
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The very first day in the relationship for us was.... awkward. Neither of us had a clue what to do, so generally I just put my arm around her and talked to her a lot. Little did I realize that I was making her incredibly uncomfortable, and a friend mentioned that Amy liked her own space so I gave her some of that. The weekend came and I wasn't sure I was to do anything: I called her at 9:00 pm on Saturday to talk to her and I waited till that late to make sure she was done with dinner and stuff, but apparently that was the time where she goes to take a bath(which is the complete opposite to me: I take them in the mornings).
So next day I talk to her on the phone and I could tell she was incredibly.... unintrested. I was pacing the kitchen trying to figure out what I had done exactly while talking to her, but nothing came to mind really. I just assumed she was absorbed in playing the sims and eventually dropped the conversation for that day.
The next week we still had camp, so we were sure to see each other(obviously): this made me happy and sad on two accounts. I was happy because, well hey, it's my girlfriend! But I was said because I wasn't sure if she said yes because she had feelings for me also or if it was just a "meh I'll give him a chance." thing. Which it turned out to be, btw. Well, it became apparently obvious that she was avoiding me and it was getting on my nerves. Not because she was avoiding me: I don't mind that as much as I probably should have. I was just bothered the whole time because I thought I did something wrong. So finally one time I got her attention and told her I just wanted to talk about nothing serious.
"Amy, I want you to know two things about me: I'm stupid and simple. It's a terrible combination, so if I do something wrong your going to have to tell me immediantly otherwise I won't know and I'll do it again."
Amy's expression to that was unreadable: I thought I could read into her a little, but since Thursday she's been a miniature human puzzle! She replied "OK same for me please." and quietly walked away after some chit chat. Apparently I was failing somewhere and I needed to pick up fast....
Wednsday comes and Amy, me, two other friends, and Druggedfox all went to the mall together to hang out. Really, I don't know what exactly happened that day: I remember playing DDR, eating dinner, and small other stuff while looking around at different shops. Druggy+I left first before the others did, and somewhere between that time and the next day Amy realized she had an intrest in me because she seeked me out and gave me a hug.
Well things only went uphill from there: we were going(still going) very slowly, but we were making progress at least. We hung out during the week and for our first real date we went to see a movie(how original). Later on I got my driver's license(August 16th to be exact xD) and I could very easily drive to her house where we met even more.
There was one small issue coming up and that was her birthday. To be honest, I had no idea what to get her: but I didn't have to look far. Turns out my step-grandmother took all of the grandchildren out to grab clay animals and we could paint them however we like. Well, I decided to grab the classical pig because I was bored and instead of the usual pink I painted it gray: then as a joke I gave it a bleeding eye, black toes, and stitches where the coin insert slot was and made it a cool zombie pig!
Yes I gave it to her for her birthday too! She loves it(or so she says), and it's on her desk whenever I walk into her room. Her birthday was fun also: she had a good dinner at her house and I really got to know her parents a lot better. I can't remember how exactly we got into it, but me and amy were cuddling upstairs and her brother somehow hit the subject of kissing: which me and Amy hadn't done yet. Needless to say, we did my the end of the night(as I was leaving), and the whole way home I set "drops of jupiter" on repeat. The song and kiss were still on repeat in my head for the entire school week also.
