Hi. So, I'll be a freshman next year in college. I have a boyfriend atm that I met through the class of '18 page for that college (weird. ik. but w/e), but he lives in Minnesota; I'm in Illinois. So we've been taking it long distance for a good while and it's going great, but I'm starting to drift away and not want to talk to him over text, etc. Long distance sucks, especially with three months ahead of no actual contact.
We've only met once in person, and that was just, unfortunately, a 30sec deal. His choir was on a trip to chicago and so we had a run in at Navy Pier but they were late and had a boat tour so yeah.
His parents/etc. don't know that he's gay, so that also makes things difficult.
The moral predicament in question: Given that we are long-distance dating, and have only been long-distance dating, would it be acceptable for me to hook up with other guys during the summer? It would be pletonic, but still. Ideally, I would just tell him that I would like to just officially start up again once school actually starts so that we could have a legitimate relationship
But here's the kicker: Borderline Personality Disorder. oops. So what I do not want is a "if you break up with me, I'll commit suicide." He has refused to seek help for his mysterious erratic behaviors in the past, and it's a struggle to get him to do it now (as a result of the disorder).
What I don't want, too, is for him to be waiting all day for me to text him or something of that nature, all while getting really upset and insecure (I've been there myself, not fun), and that does not combine well with my rapid cycle bipolar disorder that sometimes makes me just not want to talk to anybody, including him.
So, my question is: would it be acceptable to go and live my life with other boys until school begins? Should I talk to him about taking a break?