Update: just made through a day of school. I’ve told some close friends but it’s hard to just tell it to them. It definitely feels better but calder still exists. Sometimes it feels like there are both Calder and cedar. But yeah, being called a she and painting my nails and growing my hair long and wearing a dress makes me feel happy so I’ll figure it out. But yeah anyways…
my phone just doesn’t show videos or whatever it is. Literally just a blank space, unless that was the joke.
I know I double posted but I think they weren’t just spam
First and foremost, good on you for beginning to understand yourself better. I'm sure it wasn't easy, but the fact you're feeling good about it is a positive sign. It's okay to feel as if a different part of you still exists, you don't have to feel forced to be one way or another at times. Give yourself time and, most importantly, be true to yourself. Do what you feel is right for you, in whatever way that may be. It's different for everyone, as it's your own personal journey of discovery, but it sounds like you're doing well.