that's what I figured...
Yeah I had borderline? I guess? also definitely and extreme case of ADHD since I was little (not the fake spammed version, the scary kind that lands me in inpatient hospital by grade 6). I get hallucinations, non schizoid, mostly auditory and the MRI and EEG was clean so there's not much to go on. Also maybe season affective? I DUNNO.
I wasn't raped by anything but WCB and had an abusive girlfriend followed by an abusive roommate. At least the girl I was with at the time was hot and put out like a workhorse (but DIDNT look like one)