ummmm okay if this is an april fool's joke, its okay but kinda perplexing. according to my time zone you posted about 5 hours before april fool's but im not sure where you live to be fair.
if not, i dont get what you're apologizing for. being a little annoying at times on this forum, mixed with pretty funny posts as well? there is no need to apologize to us. trolling is something moody, often shut-in teenage boys do to let off some steam--annoying but not a particularly egregious offense. frankly nobody cares about your apology, assuming it's sincere--not necessarily because we dont find you amusing but because i dont think we take smogon seriously enough to be bothered.
as for these proposed changes in your maturity level, that's a good thing but it should be something you pursue independently of any reflections of your time on smogon. maturity i think is something we should seek because it gives us wisdom and wisdom is good for its own sake. regardless you seem to have a ways to go in terms of your maturing. this coming from someone formerly named DickFrog.