Hey my name is Jad/DEG and this is my writing archive :^)
I needed a place to dump my writing, specially poems and articles so I thought, why not here? I have checked the sub-forum and saw the lack of writing threads so I added mine. The megathread is kind of dead and from what I understood its for single writings and can't be used to update my writing everytime.
I began writing around 3 years ago, inspired by others around me so I started with short stories which turned out okay but I found a passion in writing poems. I started posting them on another forum and got positive feedback so I decided to continue and write more. I evolved and started writing long poems instead of short ones pouring all my feelings in them. In my free time, I usually find myself writing poems or articles. I think I'm going to try writing stories again this summer.
Poems:
(In alphabetical order)
Articles:
(Most are co-written)
Stories:
(Need to revamp my stories then post)
I needed a place to dump my writing, specially poems and articles so I thought, why not here? I have checked the sub-forum and saw the lack of writing threads so I added mine. The megathread is kind of dead and from what I understood its for single writings and can't be used to update my writing everytime.
I began writing around 3 years ago, inspired by others around me so I started with short stories which turned out okay but I found a passion in writing poems. I started posting them on another forum and got positive feedback so I decided to continue and write more. I evolved and started writing long poems instead of short ones pouring all my feelings in them. In my free time, I usually find myself writing poems or articles. I think I'm going to try writing stories again this summer.
Poems:
(In alphabetical order)
A New Meaning
I have always repugned love,
Wrote about how it breaks the heart,
And said how I’m really tired of falling apart,
Talked about heartaches, stitches and doves,
Talked about how much loneliness is a friend,
That will never leave you even in the end,
I never felt anything deep inside,
And all I remember is how much I cried,
To the point that I needed to stain the floor with my blood,
To remember that I was alive and could feel,
I walked through dark hallways searching for the light so I could kneel,
In front of some sort of savior that could save me from that flood.
Insanity was taking over as I couldn’t find a shred of hope,
The pain was taking control over my body, I soon began to crawl,
Should I give up? Should I still hold tight on that rope?
Maybe I could find someday a way to break these walls.
Between life and death I wandered through this maze,
Until my eyes stumbled upon a sort person,
I could see again through this haze,
She was stainless, who washed away her sins?
I became attracted to that sweet scent of hers,
Guiding me slowly to paradise,
Setting me free from all my vices,
After all these years…
She smiled and talked to me,
Oh, that smile! Transformed my nightmares to dreams,
My mind was dazzled by her face, all I could see was she.
Is it love? Or it’s just her face’s gleam?
I couldn’t tell until her soft hand touched my skin,
Where I could feel myself being washed from my sins,
Black tears on my cheeks I surrendered to her love,
She hugged me tightly squeezed my heart,
Making it pump again with all its force, feeling like a new start,
Did I find truelove?
Fresh and new, I held her hands tightly passed through the walls,
Told her about my struggles and how she saved my life,
How I was manipulated by vice just like dolls,
How I wrestled every night that knife,
She put her hands on my mouth and smiled,
Pressed her lips against mine and kissed the pain away.
And through the wind that seemed mild,
You colored the grey,
And reminded me of colors,
Oh how much I love you,
You’re a star that shines brighter than others,
Planted that seed of love and took care of it until it grew,
And even if I put a thousand words together describing my love,
It will never be enough to pour all my feelings through this poem,
I guess I need to thank this time the love doves,
You sewed the heart that was once broken,
And it is my turn to protect you my dear,
I will let you know that my soul keeps on craving your voice,
And I’m going to be clear,
This is my choice.
I swear that my heart will never stop following your footsteps,
I will always be by your side like your shadow,
I will always be standing on your doorstep,
I’d die for you, that’s easy to say, though
I really will be your shield,
I am ready to betray my own friends for that, the storms and the darkness.
Because you are the person that healed,
My wounds and showed it the brightness.
Oh how much I love you! You are my savior,
And taught me how to not be a failure.
I learned that to be free,
You need to create the light in the darkness,
And not wait on your knees,
For the brightness.
I have always repugned love,
But you changed my perception,
And ended my deception,
Oh how I need your love,
Because my dear, I love you.
I have always repugned love,
Wrote about how it breaks the heart,
And said how I’m really tired of falling apart,
Talked about heartaches, stitches and doves,
Talked about how much loneliness is a friend,
That will never leave you even in the end,
I never felt anything deep inside,
And all I remember is how much I cried,
To the point that I needed to stain the floor with my blood,
To remember that I was alive and could feel,
I walked through dark hallways searching for the light so I could kneel,
In front of some sort of savior that could save me from that flood.
Insanity was taking over as I couldn’t find a shred of hope,
The pain was taking control over my body, I soon began to crawl,
Should I give up? Should I still hold tight on that rope?
Maybe I could find someday a way to break these walls.
Between life and death I wandered through this maze,
Until my eyes stumbled upon a sort person,
I could see again through this haze,
She was stainless, who washed away her sins?
I became attracted to that sweet scent of hers,
Guiding me slowly to paradise,
Setting me free from all my vices,
After all these years…
She smiled and talked to me,
Oh, that smile! Transformed my nightmares to dreams,
My mind was dazzled by her face, all I could see was she.
Is it love? Or it’s just her face’s gleam?
I couldn’t tell until her soft hand touched my skin,
Where I could feel myself being washed from my sins,
Black tears on my cheeks I surrendered to her love,
She hugged me tightly squeezed my heart,
Making it pump again with all its force, feeling like a new start,
Did I find truelove?
Fresh and new, I held her hands tightly passed through the walls,
Told her about my struggles and how she saved my life,
How I was manipulated by vice just like dolls,
How I wrestled every night that knife,
She put her hands on my mouth and smiled,
Pressed her lips against mine and kissed the pain away.
And through the wind that seemed mild,
You colored the grey,
And reminded me of colors,
Oh how much I love you,
You’re a star that shines brighter than others,
Planted that seed of love and took care of it until it grew,
And even if I put a thousand words together describing my love,
It will never be enough to pour all my feelings through this poem,
I guess I need to thank this time the love doves,
You sewed the heart that was once broken,
And it is my turn to protect you my dear,
I will let you know that my soul keeps on craving your voice,
And I’m going to be clear,
This is my choice.
I swear that my heart will never stop following your footsteps,
I will always be by your side like your shadow,
I will always be standing on your doorstep,
I’d die for you, that’s easy to say, though
I really will be your shield,
I am ready to betray my own friends for that, the storms and the darkness.
Because you are the person that healed,
My wounds and showed it the brightness.
Oh how much I love you! You are my savior,
And taught me how to not be a failure.
I learned that to be free,
You need to create the light in the darkness,
And not wait on your knees,
For the brightness.
I have always repugned love,
But you changed my perception,
And ended my deception,
Oh how I need your love,
Because my dear, I love you.
Heartache
They told me, I can find happiness in love,
They told me, it can grow wings,
The feeling of being free as a dove,
White feathers, winds and rings.
Little did they know,
The feeling of growing things,
Blood stains on the snow,
Oh my poor limbs.
To be set free,
Like a falling tree,
Pain must collapse with your body,
Turning you to nobody.
That’s what they never told me,
Love is a magical mutagen,
What will happen?
Maybe, it’s just a hallucinogen.
Cause if love really exists,
It doesn’t know how to feel,
All I see are my wrists,
Engraved by steel,
Words… That will never fade,
That pushed me into depression,
Happiness for failed love, It was a fair trade,
That left me with countless questions,
With answers in my heart,
Marked by heartaches,
And when they start,
They move by heartbeat,
While I cry myself to sleep,
Full of answers yet so empty.
Memories engraved deep,
Hide the story of pain.
I never wanted to fall in love,
Because falling doesn’t sound worth it,
Yet I was victim of the doves,
Trying to liberate my spirit.
They have left me now,
But I’m not alone, that’s a vow,
Loneliness keeps me company,
When I’m away of society.
With the sound of wind,
The wars inside my mind,
My own groans,
And the cracks in my bones,
It communicates to me,
And it never lies,
And what would I be,
Without the cries,
And the pain that cuts deep,
I’ll be lost like a black sheep,
In the other world they call heaven,
A world with no misfortune.
I’m not dead,
This hurt that cuts deeply
Reminds me that I’m alive.
I trust the sound of doors slamming,
The wind blowing softly,
And I keep on grabbing,
My loneliness strongly.
They told me, I can find happiness in love,
I told them, that’s not what loneliness taught me,
They told me, it can grow wings,
I told them it generates heartaches.
They told me, I can find happiness in love,
They told me, it can grow wings,
The feeling of being free as a dove,
White feathers, winds and rings.
Little did they know,
The feeling of growing things,
Blood stains on the snow,
Oh my poor limbs.
To be set free,
Like a falling tree,
Pain must collapse with your body,
Turning you to nobody.
That’s what they never told me,
Love is a magical mutagen,
What will happen?
Maybe, it’s just a hallucinogen.
Cause if love really exists,
It doesn’t know how to feel,
All I see are my wrists,
Engraved by steel,
Words… That will never fade,
That pushed me into depression,
Happiness for failed love, It was a fair trade,
That left me with countless questions,
With answers in my heart,
Marked by heartaches,
And when they start,
They move by heartbeat,
While I cry myself to sleep,
Full of answers yet so empty.
Memories engraved deep,
Hide the story of pain.
I never wanted to fall in love,
Because falling doesn’t sound worth it,
Yet I was victim of the doves,
Trying to liberate my spirit.
They have left me now,
But I’m not alone, that’s a vow,
Loneliness keeps me company,
When I’m away of society.
With the sound of wind,
The wars inside my mind,
My own groans,
And the cracks in my bones,
It communicates to me,
And it never lies,
And what would I be,
Without the cries,
And the pain that cuts deep,
I’ll be lost like a black sheep,
In the other world they call heaven,
A world with no misfortune.
I’m not dead,
This hurt that cuts deeply
Reminds me that I’m alive.
I trust the sound of doors slamming,
The wind blowing softly,
And I keep on grabbing,
My loneliness strongly.
They told me, I can find happiness in love,
I told them, that’s not what loneliness taught me,
They told me, it can grow wings,
I told them it generates heartaches.
Heaven's Cry
Tiny little kid I was,
Naive was my nature,
Living was my cause,
Not knowing the creature,
That hid in the dark,
I got raised with lies,
My mind turned to a catastrophic park,
I was blinded, my poor eyes
Growing older, slowly starting to realize
That I was oppressed,
All these words only symbolize,
The lies telling me that I was blessed,
The truth that I saw,
Was even more horrible,
Than all these flaws,
It was impossible,
To bear the pain that rules,
Wars, hate, crimes,
All I see is fouls,
That show no signs,
Of a better world,
These creature that I thought,
Living only in the underworld,
Turned out to be real, who brought,
The enemies to our territory,
Maybe some type of chemistry,
There’s no probability,
Maybe some hostility,
The truth will breathe,
We have created the creatures,
That crawl beneath,
We need preachers,
To erase the demons that we have unleashed,
The ones that our dark side has released,
Hope is fading slowly,
It is being eaten by the unholy,
Despair reigning over us,
Nothing can save us,
We can only wait,
For the sky to fall,
And take as bait,
The evil wall,
My dreams broken,
I sit here watch the world dying,
While hearing the melody of the unspoken,
And the angels crying.
Tiny little kid I was,
Naive was my nature,
Living was my cause,
Not knowing the creature,
That hid in the dark,
I got raised with lies,
My mind turned to a catastrophic park,
I was blinded, my poor eyes
Growing older, slowly starting to realize
That I was oppressed,
All these words only symbolize,
The lies telling me that I was blessed,
The truth that I saw,
Was even more horrible,
Than all these flaws,
It was impossible,
To bear the pain that rules,
Wars, hate, crimes,
All I see is fouls,
That show no signs,
Of a better world,
These creature that I thought,
Living only in the underworld,
Turned out to be real, who brought,
The enemies to our territory,
Maybe some type of chemistry,
There’s no probability,
Maybe some hostility,
The truth will breathe,
We have created the creatures,
That crawl beneath,
We need preachers,
To erase the demons that we have unleashed,
The ones that our dark side has released,
Hope is fading slowly,
It is being eaten by the unholy,
Despair reigning over us,
Nothing can save us,
We can only wait,
For the sky to fall,
And take as bait,
The evil wall,
My dreams broken,
I sit here watch the world dying,
While hearing the melody of the unspoken,
And the angels crying.
Insomnia
They left me between these walls,
Oppressed by the darkness surrounding,
Waiting for an angel falls,
Thought I could try some founding,
But it was impossible,
Suffocating in a world so hostile,
Between hell and heaven,
Trying to count to lucky seven.
They think giving me a stone,
Would ease the pain in my bones,
That’s what we all think,
Blood merging with ink,
Were blinded since were young,
Spiting no sense with our tongue.
People believe in dreaming,
The world that hides the screaming,
Yet I don’t believe in that other dimension,
It’s a useless invention,
I don’t dream,
Nor I hear screams,
I fade away with the darkness,
Who says it’s artless?
Between despair and hope,
Between the dark and the light,
I watch these two factions fight over the globe,
And I see darkness taking a bite,
Consuming little by little,
The innocent giggles.
On that stone, I sit,
Unable to sleep,
Should I quit?
Am I driving in despair to deep?
I pour in a glass some vodka,
To slip away from this insomnia.
They left me between these walls,
Oppressed by the darkness surrounding,
Waiting for an angel falls,
Thought I could try some founding,
But it was impossible,
Suffocating in a world so hostile,
Between hell and heaven,
Trying to count to lucky seven.
They think giving me a stone,
Would ease the pain in my bones,
That’s what we all think,
Blood merging with ink,
Were blinded since were young,
Spiting no sense with our tongue.
People believe in dreaming,
The world that hides the screaming,
Yet I don’t believe in that other dimension,
It’s a useless invention,
I don’t dream,
Nor I hear screams,
I fade away with the darkness,
Who says it’s artless?
Between despair and hope,
Between the dark and the light,
I watch these two factions fight over the globe,
And I see darkness taking a bite,
Consuming little by little,
The innocent giggles.
On that stone, I sit,
Unable to sleep,
Should I quit?
Am I driving in despair to deep?
I pour in a glass some vodka,
To slip away from this insomnia.
Meaningless Actions
You think we’re not the same,
Cause we have different names,
But we’re all in the game,
I wonder who’s to blame.
I’m not a rock,
And you’re not a star,
Stop with the mock,
And think about who you are.
You go around and bring them down,
But do you know their feeling?
They are probably praying to drawn,
Trying, from these scars, healing.
Are you proud of yourself?
As he runs away and isolates himself,
In this world of pain that he made,
Don’t you think he’ll take that blade?
This was just a joke between you and your friends,
But hell between him and his misery,
He’s probably lost in your words of no sense,
Waiting for someone to save him from his anxiety.
All of that due to the words and actions that you spilled.
Turning you to a criminal, a soul that you have killed.
I’ll cover you with crimson roses as your time slowly pass,
To hide your poor body that had to bear that disfigured soul.
Your road ends here,
As the broken unite forces,
And try to make you disappear,
Your scream hides behind the galloping of the horses.
They run free.
As your world close on you,
Finding yourself crawling in the streets,
As your childish brain realizes that you grew,
Only by size, after all the threats,
You created, blinded by your own spirit,
You will be filled with regrets.
As soon as you realize your future isn’t vivid,
It will be too late to repair,
Your dark future,
After all these years,
You see that bullying didn’t build you a bright future.
You think we’re not the same,
Cause we have different names,
But we’re all in the game,
I wonder who’s to blame.
I’m not a rock,
And you’re not a star,
Stop with the mock,
And think about who you are.
You go around and bring them down,
But do you know their feeling?
They are probably praying to drawn,
Trying, from these scars, healing.
Are you proud of yourself?
As he runs away and isolates himself,
In this world of pain that he made,
Don’t you think he’ll take that blade?
This was just a joke between you and your friends,
But hell between him and his misery,
He’s probably lost in your words of no sense,
Waiting for someone to save him from his anxiety.
All of that due to the words and actions that you spilled.
Turning you to a criminal, a soul that you have killed.
I’ll cover you with crimson roses as your time slowly pass,
To hide your poor body that had to bear that disfigured soul.
Your road ends here,
As the broken unite forces,
And try to make you disappear,
Your scream hides behind the galloping of the horses.
They run free.
As your world close on you,
Finding yourself crawling in the streets,
As your childish brain realizes that you grew,
Only by size, after all the threats,
You created, blinded by your own spirit,
You will be filled with regrets.
As soon as you realize your future isn’t vivid,
It will be too late to repair,
Your dark future,
After all these years,
You see that bullying didn’t build you a bright future.
Your Death
Dark clouds over my head are floating;
Will this dark storm ever end?
Everything is dark, and i'm choking
on despair, will light descend?
Sitting here, blaming myself,
was this really my fault?
You couldn't save yourself,
nor me, i couldn't stop this depression assault.
This world seems dead,
you took it with you;
the sky already bled,
that's not to you new.
Rose in my hand,
I lay beside you,
remembering while i demand,
your sand,
to not leave me.
My wish is impossible,
but they say everything is possible;
I'm not losing hope,
I'm holding on that rope,
called life;
But I can't wait to use that knife,
that will make my deepest wish,
shine in my heart and exist.
Dark clouds over my head are floating;
Will this dark storm ever end?
Everything is dark, and i'm choking
on despair, will light descend?
Sitting here, blaming myself,
was this really my fault?
You couldn't save yourself,
nor me, i couldn't stop this depression assault.
This world seems dead,
you took it with you;
the sky already bled,
that's not to you new.
Rose in my hand,
I lay beside you,
remembering while i demand,
your sand,
to not leave me.
My wish is impossible,
but they say everything is possible;
I'm not losing hope,
I'm holding on that rope,
called life;
But I can't wait to use that knife,
that will make my deepest wish,
shine in my heart and exist.
The city sleeps in this cold night,
Covered with white blanket,
Hugging it tight
Waiting for christmas, on this small planet.
Houses are shining in different color,
Under the sky that is sending snow angel,
This is christmas’s power,
Producing unique miracle.
Inside the colorful star,
A small happy family waiting in christmas eve,
That beautiful season that leaves scars in hearts,
When all the sadness leaves,
Replaced with happiness.
As the clock hit twelve in the morning,
Kids open the gifts forgetting the darkness.
And with no warning,
They get on their knees,
And pray silently,
While the Christmas gentle breeze,
Caress their little heart softly.
Covered with white blanket,
Hugging it tight
Waiting for christmas, on this small planet.
Houses are shining in different color,
Under the sky that is sending snow angel,
This is christmas’s power,
Producing unique miracle.
Inside the colorful star,
A small happy family waiting in christmas eve,
That beautiful season that leaves scars in hearts,
When all the sadness leaves,
Replaced with happiness.
As the clock hit twelve in the morning,
Kids open the gifts forgetting the darkness.
And with no warning,
They get on their knees,
And pray silently,
While the Christmas gentle breeze,
Caress their little heart softly.
Not one of my best poem but here we go...
Everything starts from the beginning,
a new white page waiting to be filled,
happiness this year should be winning,
dreams trying to be fulfilled.
Page one we take our beer,
relaxing and watching the firework outside,
for an instant we forget our fear,
our sad feeling also goes and hide.
We turn to the second page,
where the start of our journey lays,
we break our old filthy cage,
leaving behind the haze,
walking the way we chose,
trying to complete our dreams,
leaving the past behind that froze,
that is now victim of a death scene.
Everything starts from the beginning,
a new white page waiting to be filled,
happiness this year should be winning,
dreams trying to be fulfilled.
Page one we take our beer,
relaxing and watching the firework outside,
for an instant we forget our fear,
our sad feeling also goes and hide.
We turn to the second page,
where the start of our journey lays,
we break our old filthy cage,
leaving behind the haze,
walking the way we chose,
trying to complete our dreams,
leaving the past behind that froze,
that is now victim of a death scene.
Articles:
(Most are co-written)
Stories:
(Need to revamp my stories then post)
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