I was a stubborn little kid that didn't take kindly to authority figures and always wanted to be bigger and stronger than anyone else and thought I was smarter than everyone.
Now I'm still like that except I realized I'm not the strongest person or the smartest, but I still believe I have the potential to be and strive for that everyday. And I feel I have a slight predisposition for achieving that. I'm also very competitive and introverted, and generally hateful of a lot of people and don't take very many things seriously unless it helps make me better than people. I do joke a lot though and have been told I'm very funny and strange, so I'm not a complete ass, I'm just pretty selfish.
Well, pretty much all this. However, now I try to be kind with people and motive them to be better (sometimes I wonder if I make that unconsiously to make them better, then be better than them and show my superiority, lol).
Somethign I miss from my old me is that "dont give a fuck" philosophy, because now I seem to care too much about other people, what I know is not really bad, but it has proven to be more of a handicap that I ever excpected.
I´ve also become kind of the hopeless romantic that someone else described, and I really dont like to be there, mainly because that along with my nice guy attitude led me to a "big brother/closest friend" position with my crush, and its not like I dont like it, but I always wonder if I did it wrong all the way or this is the best case scenario...
The thing that bothers me more about my actual self is this feeling that everyone just walks over me, even if they think I´m like the smartest guy in the country. I just feel dragged to everyone´s will, and at the same time I do my best to be better than them in anything I can. Like a total push over behind a Champion´s mask.
Yep, as you can see, Im always wondering if I´m just doing it right or letting the world eat me. The me from 2 years ago would have been sure about the former, the actual me is always chased by the later.
Tl;dr;: I like to be a nice guy, but I would love to get some "fuck ya all" back.
Edit: I just read Jumpluff post, and I have to say its, like poppy told, the most sincere post in maybe the whole forum.
Jump, if you read this, smogon is wating for you with its arms wide open.